Monthly Archives: January 2015

Note to Self

I love you. Despite whatever you may be feeling right now, you are not incomplete. You are, within yourself, fully alive. Every decision you have made has been from love and from the highest consciousness available to you at the time. Life will not always be easy. You will experience loss, despair, sorrow, grief, guilt, anger, depletion, sadness and shame. You will experience joy, courage, resiliency, ease, fortitude, abundance, peace, love, and swagger. Sometimes, most times, you will have any combination of these feelings at the same time. This is the journey. Be on your own team. Be a bold enough spirit not to simply transcend all of it but to embrace all of it. Yes, it’s true, you are not your emotions but there is no spiritual bypass surgery. You are here, an infinite soul, experiencing life as a human being. This is your dharma. No one person gives you validity or your light. You are self luminous. You don’t need another to feel whole. But when you realize your innate wholeness, you may share your light & life with another who is equally & inherently so. The way this looks may not unfold to your personal preference. But in the end, this is about living a full life, your life. Risk pain for the chance to deeply and authentically love & be loved. Risk being judged. Risk being weird. Have the strength to be vulnerable. Be down when you’re down but when it’s time, pick yourself up by the bootstraps and reclaim your mojo. You got this.


Opening Presence

I am taking this time in my life to manifest presence. The power of presence transcends intellectual knowledge. It is a felt sense of strength that radiates love to all of existence. It is the overflowing of compassion, the radiating of light. It is beyond attachments and aversions to the coming and going of circumstance. It is rooted in source. It embodies integrity and uplifts all who surround. It is potential manifest and a calm self assurance. It does not strive or force. Rather it moves with the flow of life. It abides behind the change yet plays joyfully within it. It heals all it touches and sees each moment with new eyes. It holds the curiosity of a child and a subtle eagerness to receive the great mystery with open arms. It owns it bigness without trepidation or apology. It inspires others to do the same. It need not be sought after because it is nothing other than who I already am- Who each of us already are.

Humility: Week 4 2015

Week 4: Humility
When I think about the people I admire & who inspire me, they all tend to share a common virtue: humility. They carry a humble presence with them in their interactions. And while it seems gentle, it doesn’t seem weak. Rather, it seems wise. It puts me at ease and makes me feel welcome in their presence. There is a certain warmth to the spirit of humility that diminishes the ego’s tendency to proclaim any sense of spiritual superiority.

Living in the yogasphere is an interesting place to reside. For the most part it is amply supplied with positivity, love, inquiry & inspiration. But I do sometimes feel that tinge of the spiritual ego. That sense of, “I’m more awake than you.”

My guess is we’ve all encountered this in one form or another. Perhaps we’ve even heard that voice arise within ourselves. That “my path is the real path” voice. And it’s true that your path is the real path. For you. And mine for me.

We are all right where we need to be to learn the lessons we are ready to receive. Knowing this removes the unconscious tendency to feel more than or better than someone else- a thought pattern that ironically could only be produced by the ego. My wish for each of us is that we find grace in our challenges and be humble in our progress. Otherwise we run the risk of simply creating a new, separate self identity- the same underlying ways of being just adorned in a more “spiritual”

We can dismantle this tendency by cultivating humility so that we may move forward with a humble heart, truly connected in the ground of spirit. Where we are all equal. For there is no hierarchy in humility.

Transparency: Week 3 2015

OK 2015- week one was equanimity. Week two, resiliency. As week three begins, I’ve been consumed by the notion of transparency. This is one of the most beautiful qualities I witness in people.

To me, transparency is raw. It’s courageous and it’s real. It’s that intangible sense of personal character. And it’s also pretty damn rare. So when I sense it, it’s like a breath of fresh, crisp air. It restores my hope in humanity. And it’s not about being perfect. It’s just about being authentic. It’s become so commonplace for us to wear a mask and portray that idealized self image to the world. We do it through social media, carefully crafting our image to the external world. Hoping that if I tell you that this is who I am then you’ll see me that way and in return help me to uphold that image of myself. It’s all flowing backwards.

We can also fall into the trap of wearing our roles. As if they are the basis of who we are. I’ve been attempting my own social experiment for awhile now and it’s been so amazing. The idea is to remove people from their roles. It’s simple. Anyone can do it. Next time you are in a situation where someone is speaking to you from their role (e.g. customer service rep, cashier, secretary, salesman, teacher etc….), instead of playing your role in return, actually speak to the human being that is behind their job title. Actually experience a real human to human interaction. It’s so inspiring. It almost always leaves me infused with positive energy and a deeper sense of connection to my human tribe.

Transparency is sincere, refreshing and honest. But it’s also something else. It’s courageous. It means we have the balls to speak from a place that’s true to where we are in any given moment. It’s the opposite of the mundane, bullshit exchange of, “How are you? Good, how are you?” It’s like we are sleep talking.

Transparency requires us to be present with our internal state and not veil it with a better looking, micro-managed false exterior. This is about getting real with ourselves and being secure enough to get real with eachother. Because the truth is that none of us are perfect. None of us are always happy, always peaceful, always centered. We are human beings. Our lives get messy. We feel deep hurt, sadness, guilt and anger. And that is o.k.!

And I promise you this: If you truly commit yourself to the practice of transparency, you’ll discover perhaps its most magical side effect- it is contagious. It will inspire those around you to remove their mask and speak from a place of truth. And then we will connect at a deeper level with one another and reflect back to eachother something that may not always be a highlight reel, but it will indeed always be real. And that, I believe, is the very basis of a life lived well. A life lived in truth. A life lived powerfully.

To living transparently…..

Resiliency: Week 2 2015

One of the most remarkable qualities we humans possess has to be resiliency. This innate capacity to transform pain into progress & growth. Sometimes I think we are stronger than we give ourselves credit for. We may find ourselves stuck in the muck & mire of difficulty yet in time we do indeed heal & come out on the other side. And when we do we are somehow stronger & more unshakable because of it. To my friends who are doing some spiritual weightlifting right now, know you too are a resilient being. Namaste & peace to you.

Equanimity: Week 1 2015

This week for me will be about uncovering equanimity (upeksha) – the underlying stillness that resides behind the commotion of emotion and the busyness of the mind. Most of the struggle I’ve gone through in my life has arisen from deriving my sense of self from how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking. Perhaps yoga’s greatest gift to me has been providing access to that deeper dimension of Self, behind the emotions and the mind where stillness, peace and true equanimity reside – the capacity to accept things as they are, on their own terms, and be cool with that. When I think about what kind of teacher I want to be, it’s the kind that holds a sacred space for each of us to experience that place within ourselves. The place of equanimity.

Receiving Gratitude

When we examine the notion of gratitude from an energetic perspective, for some reason it seems the energy exchange isn’t complete unless it’s received with the presence of an open heart. There can be that bit of awkward internal uncomfortableness that arises within us when someone is bold enough to express genuine gratitude towards us. I think it’s important to not deny these expressions of gratitude through subtle re-directs like “oh it was nothing”. Because if someone is taking the time to express gratitude then it truly was something. Holding heart space together may feel a bit confronting at first but actually receiving someone’s sincere gesture is so very powerful. So keep giving & giving the gratitude but when it boomerangs back to you, remember to receive it too, and that is the truest form of gratitude you can reciprocate.